I can’t commit, can’t settle down and can’t focus.
It’s a jumble of tensions. Isn’t so much easier to define yourself according to whom you are not rather than who you are? I don’t think very many of us naturally tie ourselves down to definitions. But to my core of cores, I am a follower of Jesus Christ. As a disciple of the Christian Way, it’s implicit that I do unto others as I would have them do unto me. Barreling along through pop culture, though, it’s so hard to pause, breathe, reflect and have a sanctified God-centred moment.
So while the cultural zeitgeist pushes us downstream in a cultural current that trumpets “be self-aware, self-actualize, self-potentialize!” I share a journey in learning how to serve. This is how I wind up captured by a crazy grace that teaches me, against my will, and yet in perfect alignment with who I really was meant to be, to look outside of myself.
It took courage to peg myself down with a direction and title: sub-headings and links, pictures and words. But it’s God’s design that I write and record pieces of this journey to give Him glory. So I submit. Albeit in a sneaky little way that slides a definition in by the skin of its teeth, by an antonym.
This so captures the beautiful contradictions of the grace to the gospel. Found but still always seeking. Love the description of our culture too.
Karen
Thanks for your thoughtful comment, Karen. It’s true—the gospel is filled with lovely tensions!